Dear Rachel,
I’m sorry for abandoning you at the end of senior year. As stupid as it is to say, I really meant to become close again after I broke up with Alex. The fact that he had a hand in ruining our friendship makes me so angry. I hate myself for allowing him to control who I did and didn’t talk to because of a stupid grudge that he holds onto until to this day. But after he and I broke up, everything that happened between us was on our own accords.
So I made excuses for why the blame was on you. Like how you didn’t try to get along with Kelsey and Mya and the drama with the lake house. Honestly after the insanity that happened between Mya and Connor that year, I was so tired of people not liking each other and having to keep up with it all and figuring out who can tolerate who. I just wanted everyone to get along for once, and I didn’t like that I had to choose between spending time with Kelsey and Mya or you. I was being naive by thinking that everyone should get along just because I wanted them to and because I didn’t have an issue with anyone.
But I’ve thought about it a lot, and I really had no excuse not to hang out with you and to be your friend again. I’m not good at accepting my faults and that’s something I have been working on. We had been best friends for so long. I know that we could’ve easily become close again and I’m sorry that I left you hanging at the end of senior year. The year that should’ve been the best for all of us turned out to be the shittiest for many of us. Some of the brightest moments of senior year happened in Academic Challenge with you. It sounds so nerdy but it was so fun doing that with you and bonding over the fact that we knew none of the questions. I’m really happy that you have found your people at Temple and I hope you continue to be unapologetic about who you are.
Love your old best friend,
Maddy
ENGL110 Spring 2020 11:15-12:05 
I think that unfortunately a lot of us have stories similar to you and Rachel’s, and it was refreshing to see someone being honest and vulnerable when it comes to situations such as this. It’s never easy to admit fault, especially when the situation affects one’s own self as well, so I think that was really brave of you. It’s terrible when friendships come to an end, but there’s still time to catch up with old acquaintances, especially now that we’re all stuck at home. Regardless, it’s amazing that you’re still supportive of Rachel and I hope that you too have found your people.
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^ -Abby Selbst
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I was choosing between writing my letter to my teacher or my old best friend. I chose my teacher, but they both had two of the biggest impacts on my life. She was always there for me, but high school and social status got in my way. I found other friends and left her behind, and that caused her to go down the wrong path. I blamed her for me leaving because she was doing things I was uncomfortable with, but I knew it was my fault. But, everything happens for a reason.
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