Being stuck at home this long is driving me slightly crazy. Like I can’t seem to stay on a single train of thought for very long–which makes doing homework very hard. I think my mental fog is coming from a growing attachment to my phone and tv because those are the two things that I find myself doing in my free time right now. And I justify it with what every positive instagramer has been saying which is something like “These are unprecedented times, there’s no right way to do it. If you want to work out everyday you can, or you can chill and relax.” I am using those messages as an excuse to do nothing in my free time (which is a lot of time now). 

While I agree with people who say that everyone responds differently, I don’t think these circumstances are an excuse to sit around and do nothing. I think everyone knows this, but it’s easier said than done. I’m going to make an effort from now on to cut down on tv and phone time and exchange them with time outside, reading, or doing something productive around the house. I should still be prioritizing my time because when else will I ever have a completely open schedule, free to accomplish whatever I want?

Something else I’m having trouble with is finding anything to look forward to because of the uncertainty of our timeline. I could look forward to vacation in June and hope that I will still be able to go, but I don’t want to hope for an event to happen that might not even happen. And then the thought of us being in quarantine for another three months annoys me beyond belief. It’s just been really hard to figure out how to mentally navigate these upcoming months because we have no idea what’s going to happen.

Maddy Mengel